You Are Worth It


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The most important relationship in life is the relationship you have with yourself. Because no matter what happens, you will always be with yourself, so you might as well enjoy the company. ~ Diane von Furstenberg

Although this is probably the phrasing most notably attributed to this sentiment, the idea of loving yourself and creating a relationship with yourself to last a lifetime is not a new thought process. Even Oscar Wilde (mid/late 1800s) who wrote during a time of huge economic change and world altering discoveries/upheaval said that “to love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.”

This idea of bettering ourselves, believing in ourselves, liking ourselves is something people want to work on and talk about no matter what is happening in the world. Famous books like Eat, Pray, Love were written around this idea of self discovery. Even Carrie Bradshaw (Sex and the City) can be credited with popularizing this theory.

“Don’t forget to fall in love with yourself first.”

This idea that by working on ourselves we’ll inevitably allow room for everything to fall into place is not new in nature.

Over the years I’ve spent a significant amount of time trying to embrace this mind-set, this thought process. In yoga you’re taught to have kind thoughts and no judgement not only towards others, but also yourself. We are our own worst critics and allow ourselves to be consumed by the voices in our head. The voice that says you’re not good enough, you’re a failure, she’s so much prettier, they’re more desirable because they’re faster and so forth. The list goes on.

Fear of this voice and the repercussions (both real and unsubstantiated) keep us from ever truly living and experiencing ourselves to our fullest. For me personally, this is something that has been heightened by anxiety. Through the years, I have worked on techniques to quiet the voice in my head and learn to love myself. This is something that like the muscles I use to swim, bike, run I have to train

Elizabeth Gilbert said it best…

“Speak to your darkest and most negative voice the way a hostage negotiator speaks to a violent psychopath: calmly, but firmly. Most of all, never back down. The life you are negotiating to save, after all, is your own.” – Big Magic

You only get one life. Maybe sometimes things are suppose to happen and you’re suppose to face challenges and changes, so that there is room for the things your meant for to happen. Why? Because you are worth it.


Off Season



So after an unfortunate early end to my triathlon season (car accident), luck just hasn’t been on my side. My hip flairing up, getting sick, making some big changes, Hurricane Matthew and LIFE put training on the back burner.

Instead of beating myself up for not getting workouts out in (anyone else hate seeing red in Training Peaks?!) I talked with my coach and we decided a more unstructured plan was the right direction for me right now. So far it’s been a weight off my shoulders! Sometimes you first need to regroup to come back stronger!  In a few months I look forward to really tackling my workouts again (I’ve got big goals next season) but right now the focus is on fitness, strength and really learning how to be comfortable being uncomfortable. It’s amazing how quickly you loose that mentality. Your brain truly is like any other muscle in your body and you’ve got to work on it everyday.

I’m having fun exploring the TRX a bit more, running with my dog Sasha (because fall weather has finally arrived in FL!) and even took my first Orangetheory Fitness class today (more to come later on that)!


Escaping Hurricane Matthew at my Aunt and Uncles by Tampa! Fall weather means running with Sasha again…finally!

Right now I’m just taking it day by day, listening to my body, reading a TON of books (send me your recommendations!) and enjoying the big changes coming my way!




Book Review: A Scot in the Dark


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img_8558Title: A Scot in the Dark
Author: Sarah MacLean
Genre: Historical Romance
Publisher: Avon Books
Format: Mass Market Paperback

Miss Lillian Hargrove led a simple, quiet life. Stuck between the worlds of nobility and service, Lilly was never quite sure where she fit in. When a scandal rocks her world, the Duke of Warnick must come to his ward’s rescue. The only problem? It’s been years since Alec (as he prefers) left Scotland and England has never felt like home. Can they stop the scandal in time and save each other in the process?

While I am the biggest Sarah MacLean fan, it’s with a heavy heart that I say this wasn’t my favorite work of hers. While the storyline was a great idea, her same humor and wit could be seen in the writing and I appreciated the ties to modern society, the main characters and the story itself were lacking and never felt like they came to full fruition.

Positives: Today’s women are still held to a different standard than men in the world of scandal and the brilliant use of a modern scandal (i.e.: sex tapes) with the painting was a fantastic look at the fact that while somethings have changed since the 1800s, others have not. Having read my share of historical books and watched enough PBS documentaries on nobility (and I’m not just referring to Downton Abbey) the concept of a Duke falling for his ward (and the idea of wards) is not farfetched and a compelling plot. The use of supporting characters, the Talbot Sisters, Stanhope, the owners of the Fallen Angel (favorites books by the way!) were where the wit and humor in the writing truly shown.

Negatives: The story itself seemed to just go in circles. Without revealing too much it was a cycle of searching for a painting, a heroine being too stubborn for her good and a Duke whining about the past and his lack of confidence over and over again. After the first few times I found myself yelling at the book for Alec and Lilly to just get over themselves. By the time they finally softened to each other, it didn’t feel like they’d truly built a “relationship” between each other and the story just kind of ended.

3 Stars